Thanks Allison for pointing this out!
1 day ago
Saturday, September 13, 2008
The dress from Nordstrom's arrived. Its much redder than it appears in the photo, but since red is one of my favorite colors, I was pleased as punch.
The dress fits!!!
I definately do not look like the model in the picture at the website. In fact, putting the dress on I realized just how wide my hips are and how I've turned from an apple shape into a pear shape. I'm actually kinda mad at myself that the first thing out of my mouth when I tried it on for my daughter was that I didn't look like the model. Like I was apologizing. Then I did it again when I tried it on for hubby!
Christ on a stick! I'm thrilled to not be morbidly obese but I'm still so insecure at times! And here I write it in the blog, too!
I'm delighted to be able to feel comfortable enough to go the Navy Ball. I really love my dress and I love the red shoes I found for it ($50! Yay!). Today I bought a necklace, bracelet, and earrings to wear with it as well, so I am all ready to go. Everything together cost less than $200. Not bad, eh? I have to take it to the tailor to have it hemmed, though. Even though its a petite size, I'm still too short for it.
Let's see... I've hit 165lbs yet again. At this point, I just laugh. When I was morbidly obese, I would lose and gain the same 20-25 pounds. Now I lose and gain the same 10 pounds. This week I've made a concerted effort on tracking my protein (I definately have not been getting enough) and my calories (I'm now averaging 1000-1200). Before the tracking, I was eating waaaay too many carbs and sugars (sodas, anyone?) and the past few days I've felt much better knowing exactly what I've put in my mouth. I am guessing that over the last couple months I have been averaging about 1600-2000 calories a day. Allowing sodas and candy to be a part of my diet was a major major MAJOR misstep. I was also munching on things like Logan's cookies and Goldfish crackers (those are like crack to me). Much of it was done while I was reading... such a bad habit.
My cycle did indeed start on the 2nd of this month, and I've been keeping up the walking, so I expect to see a couple pounds drop soon. I've also increased my liquid intake (decaf tea w/Splenda blend) and haven't had sodas for the last three weeks. I am better at taking just servings of things and watching out for grazing. The grazing is KILLER.
At this point I'm not out to drop a lot of weight before the Ball. I'd like to get rid of about 4 pounds before the Ball. Its kinda funny, but instead of losing weight to get into a dress, I have to make sure I don't lose too much so that it will still fit! If the best I can do over the next couple of weeks is get back to 163, I'm fine with that.
I know I keep saying that I want to finally get past that 153 barrier...but I'm starting to think maybe I don't. Everytime I get close to it, I start with the sabotaging behavior. Every stinking time. I'm not really sure why I'm scared of it. Maybe I figure I'll fail anyway and gain it all back, so might as well just not go there.
I don't know.
I'll figure it out. I'll conquer it. I'll succeed.
The dress fits!!!
I definately do not look like the model in the picture at the website. In fact, putting the dress on I realized just how wide my hips are and how I've turned from an apple shape into a pear shape. I'm actually kinda mad at myself that the first thing out of my mouth when I tried it on for my daughter was that I didn't look like the model. Like I was apologizing. Then I did it again when I tried it on for hubby!
Christ on a stick! I'm thrilled to not be morbidly obese but I'm still so insecure at times! And here I write it in the blog, too!
I'm delighted to be able to feel comfortable enough to go the Navy Ball. I really love my dress and I love the red shoes I found for it ($50! Yay!). Today I bought a necklace, bracelet, and earrings to wear with it as well, so I am all ready to go. Everything together cost less than $200. Not bad, eh? I have to take it to the tailor to have it hemmed, though. Even though its a petite size, I'm still too short for it.
Let's see... I've hit 165lbs yet again. At this point, I just laugh. When I was morbidly obese, I would lose and gain the same 20-25 pounds. Now I lose and gain the same 10 pounds. This week I've made a concerted effort on tracking my protein (I definately have not been getting enough) and my calories (I'm now averaging 1000-1200). Before the tracking, I was eating waaaay too many carbs and sugars (sodas, anyone?) and the past few days I've felt much better knowing exactly what I've put in my mouth. I am guessing that over the last couple months I have been averaging about 1600-2000 calories a day. Allowing sodas and candy to be a part of my diet was a major major MAJOR misstep. I was also munching on things like Logan's cookies and Goldfish crackers (those are like crack to me). Much of it was done while I was reading... such a bad habit.
My cycle did indeed start on the 2nd of this month, and I've been keeping up the walking, so I expect to see a couple pounds drop soon. I've also increased my liquid intake (decaf tea w/Splenda blend) and haven't had sodas for the last three weeks. I am better at taking just servings of things and watching out for grazing. The grazing is KILLER.
At this point I'm not out to drop a lot of weight before the Ball. I'd like to get rid of about 4 pounds before the Ball. Its kinda funny, but instead of losing weight to get into a dress, I have to make sure I don't lose too much so that it will still fit! If the best I can do over the next couple of weeks is get back to 163, I'm fine with that.
I know I keep saying that I want to finally get past that 153 barrier...but I'm starting to think maybe I don't. Everytime I get close to it, I start with the sabotaging behavior. Every stinking time. I'm not really sure why I'm scared of it. Maybe I figure I'll fail anyway and gain it all back, so might as well just not go there.
I don't know.
I'll figure it out. I'll conquer it. I'll succeed.
Thursday, September 04, 2008
Monday, September 01, 2008
We went to Yokohama yesterday without hubby. We didn't make it to Chinatown but we did find the really nice mall that carries Dior, Chanel, Tiffany & Co., Louis Vutton, and Gucci. We only went through a section of it due to Logan not being interested and getting antsy, but we plan to go back without a toddler in tow so we can really explore that mall.
We got in plenty of walking and had a nice meal at T.G.I.F then watched Logan enjoy the train ride home. He really loves travelling on them and he smiles and waves at the other passengers. Most of them smile and wave back.
Today was a quiet day. Hubby is off today and tomorrow and we are mostly hanging out at home watching movies together and playing with Logan.
We called our oldest and checked in on him. We're going to help him fix his car on October 1st, after we pay off our furniture. With his car fixed he can find a cheaper apartment and be able to get back and forth from his current work sites (he walks right now). If he stays in the area he is in now, he can't find a cheaper apartment. I did learn that his girlfriend is going to most likely move in with him and I think that's great since I love her so much. As long as they play it smart, watch each other's backs, and share expenses so that both of them can save money, I think it will work out great. We advised him to look fora two bedroom so that its just him, her, and his friend Q. Currently they have been sharing a three bedroom with a third renter and they've had two horrible ones (one ditched them and left them scrambling to cover their rent) and I think its time that our son and Q cut out that third room and the worry over a third renter. A two bedroom would allow Q and my son to cover their rent and save money even if my son's girlfriend decides not to move in. It would be great to know he was a bit more comfortable and not just simply surviving.
My daughter and I are talking about getting a Wi and doing that Wi Fit stuff. I bet Logan would like it, too.
Logan is watching Harry Potter again. Today he's been using straws as wands-- he even came up to me and bowed, in preparation for a wizard's duel. I bowed, grabbed a straw, and we had fun taking turns falling down or freezing in place.
Good times.
We got in plenty of walking and had a nice meal at T.G.I.F then watched Logan enjoy the train ride home. He really loves travelling on them and he smiles and waves at the other passengers. Most of them smile and wave back.
Today was a quiet day. Hubby is off today and tomorrow and we are mostly hanging out at home watching movies together and playing with Logan.
We called our oldest and checked in on him. We're going to help him fix his car on October 1st, after we pay off our furniture. With his car fixed he can find a cheaper apartment and be able to get back and forth from his current work sites (he walks right now). If he stays in the area he is in now, he can't find a cheaper apartment. I did learn that his girlfriend is going to most likely move in with him and I think that's great since I love her so much. As long as they play it smart, watch each other's backs, and share expenses so that both of them can save money, I think it will work out great. We advised him to look fora two bedroom so that its just him, her, and his friend Q. Currently they have been sharing a three bedroom with a third renter and they've had two horrible ones (one ditched them and left them scrambling to cover their rent) and I think its time that our son and Q cut out that third room and the worry over a third renter. A two bedroom would allow Q and my son to cover their rent and save money even if my son's girlfriend decides not to move in. It would be great to know he was a bit more comfortable and not just simply surviving.
My daughter and I are talking about getting a Wi and doing that Wi Fit stuff. I bet Logan would like it, too.
Logan is watching Harry Potter again. Today he's been using straws as wands-- he even came up to me and bowed, in preparation for a wizard's duel. I bowed, grabbed a straw, and we had fun taking turns falling down or freezing in place.
Good times.
