I have placed my Japanese lessons on my iPod, so now I can sit outside with Logan and work on them while watching him play. I am getting ready to buy my daughter her own iPod nano, probably the 8gig one. I was resistant to the iPod at first, due to the hype, but I am absolutely loving it.

My sister and two of her kids arrived today for a visit, so I didn't make the gym today. Its closed tomorrow, so I'll see about getting a workout in on Monday. Although, I am planning a shopping trip to Clarksville, with lots of walking around, so I'd be ok for the day, activity wise.

I could really feel the weight gain today when I put on my slacks. They were loose just three weeks ago and today they are snug. Probably doesn't help that I am about to start my cycle on Tuesday, so I'm all bloated up. Lovely. However, I did buy a pair of the same slacks in a siz 12 and got them on! They were just too tight for comfort but I was so shocked I could zip them up at all! Yay for me!

I'm just trying to figure out, though, how I can gain weight but still have my shirt sizes now starting to be smalls in some. Very strange. Some mediums are too loose. So I think I am going to suspend clothes shopping until we get to Texas (April 27) and I get back into the 150s.

I will see the 140s by my two year surgiversary date. I really do believe it.

I'm so happy right now. I can't stop smiling.

Hubby has been formerly cleared of all charges. He is being reinstated in his position, WILL be given the award he was slated for at the end of the month and his evaluation will remain excellent and put him on the track to Chief. They have removed the superior who brought the charges to another position that doesn't affect my husband.

We're absolutely vindicated and feel great. Japan here we come!!!


((I do wish to point out that the charges had nothing to do at all with the handling of prisoners at any level. It was over a mistake on his paperwork for leave. It should have never even reached the level that it did and thankfully the investigator and the Commander saw that. My guess is his superior will now be treading very carefully for the rest of his tour.))


Now to accelerate the visits to the gym! Have only gone twice this week.

Not in the mood, really, to write much.

A higher up in Gitmo is pissed at my husband's refusal to extend another year. The second he saw a chance to mess with him, he took it. When my husband refused to kiss his ass, this man's attempts accelerated. One single paperwork mistake gave this man what he needed and now my husband is in danger of losing his position in the task force.

We are most likely also losing our chance to go to Japan.

It fucking sucks.

I won't know more until some time between Tuesday and Friday of this week.

I've gained 6 pounds in the last two weeks. I'm having panic attacks and grazing like there is no tomorrow. I now weigh 161. That's my truth and I need to put it down.

Working on getting a handle on it now... I had forgotten what real stress feels like.

I wish I could be in Cuba to hold his hand and comfort him.

In the last two days, Logan has said three new words ("bee" [pointing at bees in books and in a computer game], "bye-bye", and "pig") as well as beginning to say "sorry" and trying to say his sister's name instead of calling her "gay" or "kay"...which absolutely don't even rhyme with her name, but he calls her that anyway.

I'm also back at the gym now and he's totally fine with it.

I'm now working on putting Logan to bed by 10:30, which worked out this evening. THe last couple days my goal was 11 and 11:30...but I think 10pm is doable, especially since he has begun skipping his naps or cutting them short. Of course, having Daddy come home for a visit then leaving again, having our house shipment sent out, then moving in with the grandparents for a week is totally going to screw this all to hell. Heck, I'll be thrilled if I can get a 'normal' bedtime of 11 for him.

I'm now looking at what type of lessons I can give him through the day to break up the tediousness of our time. The Noggin television channel is fantastic, but I'm leaning on it waaaay too much to entertain him. I'm catching myself trying to escape into books and its not fair to him at all. I may need to look into that weekly playgroup at the library again, too.

Beginning the Japanese lessons. I hope to God I don't make an ass of myself over there. Shoot, that's probably a given.

My hair is red again, but I let the hairstylist talk me into going with a more "natural" red.... its coppery and well... it looks fine, my mom is happy with it, but I absolutely loved the violet-based red. Maybe my inner punk wants to get out or something, but I'm seriously considering having it redone to that color again when hubby gets here. Even my daughter preferred the first red.

Off to play some EQ2 before heading to bed.