Today I spent a stunning amount of money at the grocery store. I was really worried about it until I sat daown to write the dinner plans for my family during the next couple weeks and realized I managed to get them a nice dinner every day up to the next payday. Whew. I am still not used to being able to spend upwards of $250 on groceries. We sure have left the days of $100 for two weeks behind us.

So today I indulged, just like the South Beach Dr. said I would. Haha. That's one of the things I like about his book- he doesn't pretend that we will never stray, that we won't enjoy our last night before the Beach begins. He pretty much says, "Hey, don't worry about it, any damage you;ve done is over by the next day and you start with a clean chemical slate."

I had a couple of chocolate bars this evening while watching The Italian Job and ate some Pop Secret Popcorn (94% fat free). And that was my indulgence. There is no soda in the house and I'm properly stocked up with my Minute Maid Lemonade Light. I'm planning on using Fit Day to keep track of what I'm eating and drinking during the day so that everyone can check it. I have heard that it usually hovers around 1200-1300 calories a day, due to the abundance of veggies.

I have read a lot of things and I know I can expect to feel a little weirded out the first three to four days. I also expect to possibly feel a little jittery as the caffeine and sugar get out of my system. I just want to take it day by day. It will be weird for me to make sure I have more than 3 regualr meals...I am not used to eating small meals throughout the day. I'm not complaining though!

I just hope I don't bail. The structure of the diet is exactly what I need right now and I really do hope it helps me get back in control.

Weigh in for the South Beach Diet was 207 this morning.

I am sitting tonight in anticipation of the next 6 months.

My menu plans are done, my food lists made, and my gracery list sits on the table. I take hubby to work tomorrow so that I can do my grocery shopping properly. When he goes, he doesn't follow my list, grabs what he thinks looks good and rushes me along. Its the Marine in him, I know that, and due to that, I let him know he wasn't coming with me this time. He didn't understand until I told him that my trip could easily take 2 hours, since I'll be reading labels and slowly going through the aisles so I don;t forget anything. hearing that, he was more than happy to back out. Heh.

I took this week off to give my back plenty of time to recuperate. I think I didn't wait long enough the last time and with the unpacking, my back was bound to complain.
I will be back to walking and WILL begin weightlifting on Monday. I will probably just do my lifting DVDs to get back into the groove.

Since I talked to hubby about supporting me by not bringing me snacks home, he has refrained. He even talked me out of bad choices a couple times this week! I thanked him afterwards and the next day. He has listened patiently while I explained the South Beach diet program, pointing out the meals I can have with the family and ones I can't. I know its probably driving him nuts with all the talk... I do get obsessive about things that get me charged up. He does the same when he comes home from work and tells me the same things over and over or wants to discuss our retirement plans ad nauseum. I don't mind it at all... we could be at each other's throats. Thank God.

My sister called and asked for advice about legal seperation and my husband and I filled her in on some details. Seems she is headed for a second seperation with her second husband. I really didn't know what to say, because when I advised counseling for herself, she told me she isn't going to do anything anyone tells her. Well...at least she's honest. All I know is, I don't want to be in the middle of it. I told her about Marriage Builders,but I don't believe she is ready to learn anything from it.

So on Monday I start Phase 1 of the South Beach Diet. My weigh in will reflect a lot of bloat (from the new birth control, my time of month beginning, and the prescription medication I've been on)...but you have to start somewhere. Heck, Id be happy to lose 5-6 pounds to start...anything to get me back to Onederland!

I am not over the moon excited...I am a bit anxious about failing, but I did work on myself mentally over the last two weeks to be ready. I think I am. I would love to see my original goal of 175 by my 13th anniversary. I have all the tools at my disposal... now I just have to chuck all the excuses.

Well, we think we know why my back and hips hurt. Looks like I aggravated the muscles in my back that I pulled just a couple weeks ago. Unpacking and such, the increased walking, and secretly moving heavy furniture around so I can get things done myself, in addition to sleeping the wrong way at night (cuddled with pillows when not with hubby)- well, its enough to piss off any bad back.

And still a motivator to lose weight. I really feel the sleeping issue is a big problem with the excess weight. Its hard to get comfortable when parts of your body bulge, get in the way, and otherwise screw with a good sleeping posture.

So Im on muscle relaxers and anti-flammatory meds again for the next couple days and walking is out. So for the next few days Im going to keep my calories around 1500.

I can't sleep. I keep thinking about my plans. So much I want to do.

Hubby is having a good time with work. My son is getting his first job soon. If it wasn;t for that, I'd probably work part-time over the summer. But he wants it really bad, and I really do not want to put him in the position of being the primary caregiver on his summer. Ack, I just remembered that he has summer school as well. So he'd be gone during the day and my daughter isn't old enough (or mature enough) to be alone. So that settles that.

I can however, work on my story...been thinking about it a lot, too. I could treat it as a job, just like I will be treating my workouts.

I'm really looking forward to getting back to school this August.

I saw 205.5 today after a weekend of no heavy exercise, but eating more SBD friendly.

I'm leaving now to go for a walk.

After reading Holly and Brenna's comments, I took a moment to really think about it. Sabotage. Its an ugly word. Treacherous action to defeat or hinder a cause or an endeavor; deliberate subversion. And although I truly feel hubby isn't deliberately, knowingly, and purposefully attempting to stop my success, his efforts to give me food rewards or sweet gifts to show his care for me are definately up the alley of obstruction.

I have talked to him about it and begged him to not do it anymore, that I need his help very much to continue. I think he felt badly about it, because this evening I lay down with him and he fell asleep with me in his arms. I'd scoot a bit away from him and he'd tighten his grip and scoot closer. Hey, it was nice, I wasn't complaining! Our conversation had my brain on overdrive, however, and I couldn't sleep, so I tried to gently slip out of bed. Hehad adeath grip on me though and woke up. "Good night sweetie," he said. And kissed me. I whispered I was going to get up, that I couldn't sleep and I would snuggle up with him when I got back in bed. He sleepily said "Ok...love you." And I tiptoed out. I talked to both my children just now and asked them to call me on eating that was definately on the NO LIST and they both agreed. I told them I need them as much as I need their Dad to help me. My daughter seemed excited.

So, the whole family is on board now. I've made it clear that all this sugar is actually making me feel ill. I have felt completely out of sorts all day.

So yes, Brenna, I did need the reality bitch slap. I still don't think he meant sabotage, but its definately not supportive. I really, really do need him to call me on bad eating, just like Holly's husband does. He can't be my partner in food crime anymore.

I wish it wasn't so late, Id go for a short walk if I could.

I want this to be the last month I have to see 206 on the scale. I never wanted to be here again, but unfortunately, I wasn't 'serious' enough about it to keep from backsliding. I am learning more and more, though...so like Thomas Edison said, "I have not failed 700 times. I have not failed once. I have succeeded in proving that those 700 ways will not work. When I have eliminated the ways that will not work, I will find the way that will work."

Just got back from my morning walk- 2 miles today. That brings my May total so far to 24.61. The total for the week, though is a paltry 5.95. Now, this weekend was taken up by unpacking, so I can forgive 4 miles. So I guess Im close to normal. Too bad my eating went south this week.

I have decided to start using Fitday again beginning with Day One of Phase 1 of SBD. So look for the Fitday link on June 1.

I kept the 16.9 oz bottles from the Coke we bought yesterday and filled them up with water. I am now using them to make sure I get my daily intake minimum of 64 oz. I have NOT been drinking water all week and eating a lot of sodium filled foods, so its no wonder my weight creeped back up to 206.

I am listening to my neighbors screaming at each other. They haven't stopped since he walked in their door for lunch. This sucks because each of them seemed really nice to me...but you know how it is. I hope this isn't normal behavior.

OK, off to check on other journals!

Thanks Brenna and AStrophe for your comments- my answers are the commentary. I think you both were spot on. I thank God I have such good online mates who know so much and can throw me a frickin' bone when I need it!

Well, I made the worst mistake a dieter can make...hubby and I went to the grocery store with both of us hungry as sin. We all know what that means. I have had 16 oz. of soda. My no-caffeine streak is over and I'm a little depressed over that. We also had lasagna, garlic bread, and cupcakes for dinner. Good Lord, I am on a irghteous sugar and carb high right now. I feel a bit dizzy. Like I'm hopped up on speed or something.

I was not craving that caffeine however. I went to get my lemonade and they didn't have it. Hubby said "Grab some soda, its ok you haven't had any." Of course, I am now trying to understand why he wanted to get me the cupcakes. And why i let him. Because I was hungry...and I have had minimum sugar lately. Again, I wasn't craving it at all, but I didn't fight him over it either. He was offering cupcakes and I took them.

I've eaten 4. Good God. No wonder I feel high as a kite. And ya know, its not his fault at all, its mine. I saw a chance to eat guilt free and I took it. I will talk to him tomorrow about not offering me treats anymore. I have a willpower problem and I need his support to keep me on track.

No walk today. Hubby and I got wrapped up in spending time together and now its too late to walk. Ok..I will walk twice tomorrow. Once in the AM and I'll do a workout with my dvd's! Cool.

My puppy is almost completely housebroken. I love this little guy. What a sweetheart. No pictures yet. I keep forgetting to turn them in.

I caught four kids smoking weed behind my house today. Hubby was in the bathtub and they split by the time he came down. Next time, I will walk outside and take their picture then tell them to keep that shit away from my house. Dammit.

I will probably be using the treadmill today. Its threatening to rain again and I don;t want to have to wear a jacket while walking. The treadmill is out in the garage and we stillplan to make a workout room there. For Christmas/Hannukah we hope to purchase some weightlifting equipment.

My mother just called me, which doesn't happen that often, and I first assumed that something had happened to my grandfather, Elmer, who has Alzheimer's. He's far enough into the disease that he no longer recognizes anyone but his dog and his wife (but occasionally can't recall who she is). I know there are physical complications this disease can cause, but the phone call had nothing to do with his health. She called to tell me that she bought me the South Beach Diet book at a 40% discount (she gets a discount at a store she frequents) and that she will send it to me today or tomorrow. I was really surprised, because I had asked Dad just to get her to tell me the cost, so that I could compare the price to Amazon.com. Mom wouldn't tell me the price at all and asked if I wanted the orange book (it has the recipes) to let her know. I definately want the recipe book, I've been told its the best out of the three out there.

She knows some ladies on SBD and they were very enthusiastic about it. Guess she figures this is her way of helping me. And it is a huge help, because our finances are tighter than I expected right now, as we are trying to pay off debts as quickly as possible. Anyway, I thanked her profusely. She was in a hurry, since she was setting up a table at a Tennessee celebration for the Republican party (she's a very active Republican).

So I definately have the original book and she can manage the recipe one later on. I'm thinking of sending her $20 next payday to cover the costs. Its about all I can send right now.

I've been feeling pretty sluggish lately. And I do feel like my blood sugar is out of whack. My hip joints are killing me. I didn't see anything about joint pain in the birth control pills's fact sheet. I'm wondering if its the weight I have gained back and my body is pissed off. I'm back to 206. Could be the pills combined with my bad eating habits. Most likely just the bad eating habits. Heh.

I haven't had any caffeine or soda for four days now. I'm running out of my lemonade, so I have to go buy some this evening so I can get through this weekend!

I will post my walk mileage later.

1.75 mile walk today. My daughter left her lunch at home and I got the call from her to deliver it. Luckily we live within a ten minute walk. Ok, so I really made it in 11 minutes. :)

We paid of a $1300 bill yesterday. That felt just wonderful!

Hubby and I had a disucssion today about how food is really addicting and I was shocked by how quiickly he agreed. He has gained a bit of weight since we left Guam and a great deal of it has come from his new snack: sugar wafers. Unfortunately, I allowed myself the indulgence as well. I also managed to eat 6 ice cream sandwhiches within two days. Half the box. HUbby and I agreed they aren;t being brought into the house anymore. The ice cream I buy for the kids will be the kind I can;t stand which will keep me out of them. I do the same for my kids's lunch snacks, and it works for me.

My hip joints have been aching for about three days now. I must be sleeping wrong or something. Hubby thinks it might be from all the walking and stair climbing I am doing now.

Other than the achey joints, I have had no headaches or other problems. I think the pill is working for me.

2.2 miles walked today. That brings my May total to 20.86 miles so far. Have to go finish some househol chores, hubby will be up from his nap soon.

I am preparing for the South Beach Diet for the next couple weeks. Yesterday my eating was way out of control- usually I'm really good- but I just went bonkers I think I know what it is...caffeine withdrawal. One day without soda and I get cravings..since no soda is in the house anymore, I get sugar binges. Going to work on this a bit for the next couple weeks so that beginning the SBD on the 1st is a breeze. Get the cravings over with now will make phase 1 easier to get through. I have wanted to give up the soda for a while now, so its not a sacrifice. Its just a really good way for me to gain some structure. I need it.

I'm just thrilled my Minute Maid Light Lemonade is allowed- it has no sugar- because its the one drink I can handle that is sugar free. HUbby likes it, too. The kids have switched to Sunny Delight, which I loathe, so I have no problems not drinking their stuff.

Doing a walk today to see my daghter in a school presentation. She is playing the recorder. She is really good at reading the music and practices a lot. She loves music. I am hoping to get in 2.5 miles today.

I am heading to McD's in the next couple days to get that meal with the pedometer. Would be great if its slightly more accurate than mine. When it gets hot, for some reason, the pedometer isn't as accurate and isn't counting all the steps or distance. Thankfully we got accurate readings when I first used it.

We just keep receiving more blessings here in this house. First it was the smooth move from Guam, the van purchase, and the pleasant road trip. Then receiving a base home within 13 hours of arriving here, moving in within 32 hours, and purchasing furniture at great prices. After that it was the fact that hubby's commander from Guam showed up in Little Creek and spread his praises on my husband's work abilities. They are very, very impressed with his training, qualifications and background. He has already trained a couple classes here! He was teaching within days of checking in and he isn't even in the training department yet. After this positive feedback, hubby was invited on to a softball team for security the first week and the men on that team have been just great to him. They even invited him to a poker game (he didn't go because our household goods had just shown up and he didn't want me to be unpacking alone) last Friday. Considering that the majority of these men are married, I'm more than willing to support that social life. Then the blessing of learning that hubby works on day shift. That is 6am-3pm. And yesterday we found out his days off. We expected maybe Tuesday-Wednesday or Wednesday-Thursday. Nope. Hubby gets Friday and Saturday off with every other Sunday off as well!

Blessings everywhere we look.

Oh my word...someone save me...I'm going to jump on the South Beach Diet bandwagon.
A friend from a weightloss forum shared the Phase 1 aspect of the SBD and I'll be damned if it wasn't the kind of plan I could live with for two weeks. I am really intereste in seeing what Phase 2 looks like, so I just may have to find someone with the book or google the darned thing and hope something pops up.

I have seen the Atkins diet and thought it was just awful and I watched, horrified, while a couple of neighbors put themselves through the paces of that program. They dropped it after a few weeks and gained back the roughly 6 pounds they lost. They were both active duty women who did exercise as well. Just listening to them talk about the money they spent,the crud they went through in the first phases...ick, no way.

After seeing SBD's Phase 1...that darned thing was livable. I was a little pissed that it seemed realistic to me. Guess I was hoping I could keep my bias.

I am not starting until June 1, though, as we already bought this next couple week's groceries and I am not one to waste food (just look at me and you know that! ha!).

Except for today. We went grocery shopping on Friday and I grabbed kosher Polish Sausage by Hebrew National. I love Polish Sausage and I was in a full-on raging "I'll eat what I damned well please today" kick. I ate two today. Two. There are two left. Well, there were... I threw the fuckers out. I shouldn't have brought them into the house and I KNEW THAT when I bought them. No more, that shit ain't gonna fly. That dog won't hunt.

Found out this morning that my bestest friend is heading to Guam in Spetember. HA! And if we head back to Guam in 2007, she will have LEFT already. HAHAHA. Damn, that's bad timing. *sigh* Well, we also have Japan and Iceland to consider. Truthfully, I really don't care at this moment. I'm too busy enjoying our new home.

I've been driving my husband bonkers with my new obssession with Mini Coopers. I want one. Badly. Maybe its because I'm Brenna's unoffical stalkerpreseident of her fan club...I don;t know. But those Mini Coopers just give me tingles...of the orgasmic kind.

Brenna, I hate to say it, but I didn't make the 12 miles. I didn't even make ten this week. On Thursday, after I watched "I lost It!" on Discovery Health Channel, I got on my walking clothes and shoes and headed out the door. Then there was an ominous roll of thunder- and rain. I didn't even make it to the end of the driveway! So instead of sitting in front of the tv, I took my daughter with me to shop at some thrift shops. Scored her a dresser for $20. Did some grocery shopping as well.

Then today, Friday, my household goods came at 8am. If its any consolation- my back and feet ache from unpacking, moving things, and cleaning. I am only half way done. I also went shopping at Home Depot, the commisary, the NEX,and then Big Kmart with my daughter and hubby.

So although I didn't make the 12 miles, I still remained active and within my calorie range. This morning I once again saw 204.

No problems with the BC pills yet. No achey breasts or mood swings.

I would type more, but my fingers and hands hurt from putting things together and unwrapping stuff.

I will definately post on Monday if I don't make it back here this weekend.

Had my doctor's appointment today and I am now using Ortho-Tricyclen 28. I used it before when we were first married and until the "antibiotic incident" which ended up with me pregnant with our daughter, it worked for us.

The doctor's scale gave me the same exact weigh-in as my home scale. Which is great! Not great that its still stuck at 205, but great that I now know it is accurate and I can rely on it.

I drove the van for the first time in a month. I know for others that isn't a big deal, but the size of that van just scares the crap out of me. I didn't kill anyone and I got home in one piece, so it was a successful outing. Hubby foundout he is on dayshift and it means that beginning on Monday, I have the van- unless of course I tell him I don;t need it and he can take it to work. But since I get the van, I have decided that next Monday begins my gym workouts. I will be doing them in the mornings when no one is there, between 9am and 10am. I have also decided to try the elliptical, even if it means I can only do a couple minutes at first. Go me!

Today I walked 2 miles. I walked from our home to the base and to the softball field hubby was playing at. I watched his second game then we drove home. The walk felt great. I am beginning to actually feel my calves when I walk and I asked my husband if he thought my legs looked differant and he said he'd swear my thighs seemed slightly toned (as much as thunderthighs can get toned at these proportions).

My total so far for the week is 7.83 miles. I have two more days to hit 12 miles. Looks like I can do it!!!

Also, this awesomely cool thing happened today. I received a package in the mail that I wasn't really expecting quite yet. My friend Holly of Holly's Weightloss Journey sent me some clothes she can no longer where (due to her weightloss)!!! They are really great pieces- with two t-shirts she sent really accentuating my curves-- I look super busty! Hubby went "WOW! That looks good on you!" I have been hearing that more often and I love it.

Thank you Thank you Holly, for helping me expand my wardrobe. I was so happy that I could wear half of what she sent (some stuff was Old Navy styles!), and that she sent me some 14/16s as well so I could work into those.

It just thrilled me so much. And quite the motivator.

Things are going so well, I kinda find myself worried that something wicked this way comes.

Until then, I'll be smiling.

Whoah, Blogger updated their look and feel and its...feeling like Windows XP after upgrading from Windows 98se. Familiar but disconcerting just the same. (just so you all know, I have my Win XP in Classic Mode...so it feels like Windows 98se. Heh)

I walked this morning. Yeah I couldn't believe it either. It was only about 1.20 miles, but I plan to walk again later so that today I can hit three miles. I am trying to make up for the two days I didn't walk due to the nasty headaches I have been having. I have a GYN appointment for the annual pap and new birth control, so I am going to bring up the hedaches with the doctor. If she can't help me (and I don't think she can), I will make another appointment with a physician. I strongly suspect they are sinus headaches.

But just in case I am trying to cut caffeine from my diet. I haven't had soda in two days. Yeah, I feel a strong sense of deja vu, too.

I am writing this on my computer- its back and I lost none of my data. I was thrilled to death to see Marilyn Monroe back on my desktop.

When I took my nap this morning (yes, I nap, always have), I dreamt an entire episode of Angel:the tv series. Excpet of course it wasn't an actual episode, but it was an interesting story. At least to me, anyway. and Angel had to save me from a friend's abusive husband who was played by Kurt Russell. Hrrm.

My weight is sitting back at 205. I really shouldn't be surprised considering the salty snacks I've been having (Pop Secret popcorn [lite], tortilla chips and salsa). Besides, you often have a gain before you begin to lose as your body readjusts. I stopped exercising for at least two months, so its no wonder my body is thinking, "WTF?"

I've decided to keep everything I write about in one blog. This is my place, my space...

That said- things are going really well. Its not perfect, but its better than it ever was. Hubby has made comments that have surprised me, mostly because things he says make me realize he's thought a lot about everything. We are doing better than expected.

Off I go to finish my walks for the day. If I do it now, I won't put it off til later.
************Back from walk- 2.06 miles the ssecond time, so add in the 1.2= 3.26 miles for today. The total for this week so far is 5.38 miles.

No computer arrived so I checked the site again and it says my computer will be delivered by 4:30pm tomorrow.

Walk today was 2.12 miles with my husband in tow. I had to almost beg him to come, but he said yes after only a couple whines. I did not walk yesterday- it was a marathin loafing with hubby day. I was kinda pissy with myself when I saw it was 10pm and too late to walk. Wasted time. I will make up for it this week.

Real sweaty right now, he's getting ready now to head off on his run. He used our walk as his warm up.

He cooked lunch for me for Mother's Day. That was real nice.

We drove to the beach but dogs weren't allowed and we had Shadow with us, so we just admired the view for a bit and drove home.

Not much else to say. :) Just happy.

Yay! My computer arrived in Virginia Beach this morning! So it looks like I should have it delivered today! WOOHOO!

Which means a whole afternoon of backing up, re-installing, and downloading all my software again! Ya...err..uhh..yay?

This week I am going for 12 miles. I think I can do it with some sense of adventure. I have two routes I can take that I know are 2 miles. NOw there are two other directions I haven't gone that would be a bit farther,but ultimately wold love to be able to do with little to no effort by the end of the summer. We are so close to the base gate, that I believe the military public beach is within a 3 mile walk of our home. I would like to be able to do that walk and the 3 miles back without it killing me. Now that I think about it, I think the gym is within 2.5 miles of us as well. How cool would it be to be able to do the walk there, lift weights and be able to stroll home? Must talk to hubby about this.

In addition to the gym and the public beach, there is the NEX (Navy Exchange- its like a military department store), the commissary, and the furniture store. They are closer to me, by about half a mile I think. The Subway is by the furniture store. I could walk, get a sub, walk home and eat. I think I will ask hubby to drive these routes with me and figure out how far they are then I can work on being able to do them. That way I can mix up my walking and I won't get bored.

Today's walk was 2.08 miles in 30:35 minutes.

The total for May 1- May 7 was 10.83 miles!!!

I took pictures on my route and will have them up a bit after the 15th, when I have all of our film developed.

Watching Last Samurai with the family tonight, so off I go!

I'm taking my camera with me today on my walk to document surpassing ten miles in a week for the first time. I found a disposable camera with 15 exposures left. I'll also take some shots of our new home and maybe let my hubby take my picture. Or I'll have my son take our picture together, since we have exactly THREE of us together. We've been together off and on since we were 13, yet we have only three as a couple. I think that speaks volumes. We are doing the family portrait around Thanksgiving, so I would really love to be in the 180s by then.

My scale is still lying and saying I have lost a pound this week.

Yesterday I bebopped up the road to return a movie to the Hollywood Video. It is only 1.06 miles away, so I use it as a marker and usually turn right around and walk back to hit over 2 miles. Now that I know I am completely capable of making the trip, I have no excuses whatsoever for late fees. So I headed there yesterday and I got 3/4 of the way there when I see this green van sidle up next to me. I look over and its hubby. He arrived home to find me gone and the kids told him I had taken off to return the video and he figured he could catch me. I was so delighted to see him that I didn't mention he was screwing up my exercise by picking me up. :) He took me to the Wawa gas station and he got a Dr. Pepper and I picked up a 44oz. cup of Minute Maid Light Lemonade. YEP! I found a place that sells it in the fountain.

We headed back home and he got sleepy around 5, so I sent him to take a nap. He thought I was going to play video games, but I didn't. I got off my butt and grabbed my pedometer and finished my walk. Which is why my total was 2.81 and not 2.12. :) I was extremely proud of myself and hubby was surprised when he got up. I really like throwing him for a loop.

I am seriosuly thinking of taking Tae Kwan Do classes. I just need to walk over there and find out how much they cost. A friend of mine told me its great exercise, even though he does more strenuous martial arts. But for someone who isn't out to compete and just needs it for fitness (and focus), it would be a good idea. He says its a great lower body workout, too. Exactly what I need.

I brought it up to hubby, but he said that aerobics is free at the gym. I don't think he quite gets why I would be interested in a martial art. I think I need to tell him I have always been interested in it and would like to try. OOO, maybe I could see if someone teaches TKD on base? Hmm...

Well, off I go to play with puppy. No house accidents yesterday! yay!!!

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Today I walked 2.81 miles in 41:32 minutes. I am SO SWEATY.

So my total so far is 8.75 miles from May 1 to May 6.

I have one more day to add to this week's total, I think. And it looks like I would surpass the 10 mile record for myself. Which is very cool.

Hubby finds out his regular shift next week, so that will be a huge help for me determining my gym workouts and other activities. I arrange my day around the kids, hubby, and the puppy. It doesn't bother me, since I do feel blessed to be able to stay at home and not *have* to work. If I wanted to, I could, but right now nothing really appeals to me so I will just concentrate on classes (starting in August) and losing the rest of this extra weight (which began May 1).

I'll be watching survivor and Friends finale tonight, just like millions of others. I am not a rabid Friends fan. I watched it when I could, but didn't rearrange a schedule to fit it in. I did do that with Survivor and The Apprentice, Buffy, and Angel. X-Files was a major mainstay for me and I did indeed belong to an X-Files newsgroup. Not surprising, since my parents did use tv as a babysitter (tv and the Southern Baptist church HAHA),so it seems natural to me to make tv shows a big part of my life. What saddens me is I actually watch less tv now than I did, say, four years ago. Makes me sad knowing how much of my life I did spend in front of the tv, depressed and stuffing my face. I don't do the 'stuffing of the face" anymore, thank God.

I'm on my time of the month and it has me crampy and headachy. Not bloated, surprisingly...imagine my surprise when the scale whispered to me I was 204. Hmmm....I had to step on it 3 times. Same answer. I think its lying. After my time of month is over its going to tell me I gained four more pounds. Watch.

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Ok, just got back from my walk and the stats are: 2.14 miles in 30 minutes.
So my total walked in 3 days so far is: 5.94 miles.


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Feeling really good and am within my calorie allowance for the day as well.

Yes, still seriously, seriously considering a bid at enlistment.

Realized I can't register for Orlando until July-- I need to pay off a couple accounts first. Then I will be free to do whatever. Have to email Astrophe to let her know.

Put off watching Kill Bill until tonight. We tried to watch Charlie's Angels Full Throttle-- thank God we didn't pay any money to see that piece of shit.

Every so often I still get the urge to try for enlistment. Today was yet another day where I seriously discussed it with hubby. I just wanted him to know that I still consider it and that its still an option for me. Of course, I am running out of time and I would have to be ready to go in by March 2006. The thing is...I do NOT want my ability to enlist to be dictated by my weight. I want it to be a decision I make due to personal reflection, not because I was physically incapable.

And that's pretty much what I have allowed my weight to do. Being heavy has seriously impaired my personal enjoyment of life. Lose the weight, lose the excuse.

May 1st I walked 2 miles (minimum) and today I put the pedometer on and measured the distance my husband had plotted out for me and he was right on the money. Today I walked 1.82 miles in 27:11 minutes. I worked up one heck of a sweat, even though the walk was completely flat. Which is also probably why I made such great time. My walks in Guam were on hilly terrain, guess it slowed me up more than I knew!
I also spent 2 hours walking around with hubby and our daughter shopping.

Off I go to shower. Hubby is waiting for me.

Shadow, our puppy, has not poo-poo'd in the house for three full days now. He also has one full week of successful overnights with no pee accidents. I have read Brenna's and Sassy's suggestions along with other places and I'll be getting a special circular gate to set up Shadow's area-- its my compromise on the crate. I showed hubby and the kids what teh crates look like and how you can make them comfortable and such, but they all completely spazzed at the idea of putting him "IN A CAGE!" Bah. Silly humans. So I showed them the gate idea, which is really designed for toddlers. Hubby remembered that when we picked up Shadow, his owner was using the same gate. Duh, ya think I came up with that on my own?

I would have bought the gate/corral today, but I am kinda low on funds- considering we just purchased: my Mother's Day gift of a new Hotpoint Washer Dryer set (color is Bisque), new weedeater, new vacuum cleaner, new computer desk (yay! i'm not sitting on the floor), and some house decorations. Right now I still have the house area cut off with some cardboard gates I made, so he is kept in the livingroom and computer area. I am with him most of the time.

I also was able to buy some preventative flea medication (Advantage 10) and a new leash (red with silver paws along it). I used a suggestion from a website and had a bag of treats and took him outside and would give him very small pieces of treats to get him to move along. He is more stubborn than me, so it was slow going. But he did forget himself when some kids came by and he moved around on his own til they left...seemed like he remembered the evil leash was on him and then he acted all oppressed and such and wouldn't move again. It was very noisy, however, and I am wondering if I'd have better luck getting him acclimated to the outside afternoon noise and traffic (we live next to a basketball court) and then working on walking with the leash. I do put the leash on him in the house and let him walk around with it on, but the kids and hubby take the damned thing off him because he looks so put upon. Really, Shadown is adorable, but he is a bit of a drama queen.

May 1st, first day of the challange month to walk as much as I can. I walked around with hubby and we think we got in a couple miles at least. All I know is that we did the same thing yesterday and my feet hurt right now like they did last night when I lay down to go to sleep.

Oh...and I actually applied for a job today. What the hell. Would be nice to have some extra money to spend as I wish. Doesn't mean I will be hired, but I'll tell you what... my husband seemed awful pleased with me today.

Watching Kill Bill tomorrow. Better be good.