I now have a computer. However, I have been patching and downloading things all night and its time for bed already. I plan on meeting my kids online to play games with them and talk this weekend. Talked to my family this evening and it was so good to hear their voices.

Ok, going to be responsible and head to sleep. I will just pretend that I am not really exhausted and can barely keep my eyes open.

I'll write more later.

I should have my own computer within the week. However, the University's internet system is under attack of that nasty Blaster virus and they are having a difficult time stamping it out due to IDIOTS who can't follow simple instructions in how to patch their computer before hooking it back to the network. Friggin' idiots are ruining it for the rest of the residents on campus. Hopefully it will be taken care of (they are fining the people who reinfect the system) by the time I get my new computer.

I miss checking up on everyone daily. I especially need it for homework- I have had to use my fellow Housemates's computers to finish assignments already this week. They don't care, but it bothers me.

Tonight I am headed to a Howard Dean assembly (maybe) and definately going to the Observatory at 9:30 to look at Mars. Going with my housemates, so it should be fun to meander around downtown afterwards.

Spanish class is going to be interesting and difficult, but I am going to also join the Spanish club so I can learn more effectively. It should help. My profesora said it would. Muy bien.

I have a housemate who is teaching me how to weightlift. He is a former Marine. I hope I don't embarrass him too badly.

I'll try to log in and update again this weekend.

I haven't touched a computer over a week due to visiting my parents in Kentucky.

Lots to say but not much time- my first class begins in 40 minutes, but wanted to pop in here and let you all know that I am doing well. I am moved in to Graduate House and everything is unpacked- pretty much- and I am looking forward to meeting my professors today.

I have met some nice people and even volunteered to be on the Grad House cancel and get involved in student government here. Its in a very small capacity, but its something.

I miss my kids and my husband, but I still find myself happy to be here.

And I am literally walking my ass off. Here's to better health and fitness!

I'll be updating my stat info to the right on September 1.

I'll get back in the thick of things as soon as I get my new computer system, which hopefully be in the next couple weeks.

Later!

Drove around in my truck today and realized I hadn't written here in a bit. There isn't much news to report other than my right foot is still hurting a lot and now my middle finger on my right hand is sore around the nail and it hurts to type. Its like I have an ingrown nail but I have looked and I don't! Ah well, hopefully it will clear up soon. I am worried about my foot. Might have to head to a hospital next week if it doesn't get better.

Today was a shopping day so I limped along after going to the Depratment of Motor Vehicles. Didnt get to register my car, but that situation will be fixed on Monday so Im not worried about it. Got a clip on the driver's side window so its easier for me to roll it up and down. Yay! I went to Target and Walmart and purchased things like cheap silverware and fruit to eat. I went to the Goodwill store and bought a neat sheet for my bed and 3 plates, 3 bowls, and a fruit bowl. $5. I'm still on the lookout for a blanket and I may have to get that on Monday, due to my foot. Gives me something to do Monday afternoon after buying my books for class. Will also be searching for a used TV on Monday as well. Can't sit in my dorm room with no computer and no television. Must have a television at least! Especially with free cable!

Also went to the mall, limping really badly by then, and bought a light blue,spa style bathrobe on sale at JCPenney's. Im sitting in it now. Love it.

Hubby and the kids decided to keep my computer so I will be purchasing a new system on September 1. I'll have $1000 to spend on it, so it should be just fine. That's enough for a good system and a 19" moniter.

Its weird knowing I am getting ready for bed on a Friday night and my kids are running around enjoying a Saturday afternoon with their Dad.

Im getting 6 hours of sleep now, have done it for two nights in a row. Good sign.

Still having panic attacks about my husband and not knowing what is going on. I guess its natural, but I hate it. It makes me feel stupid.

Its early morning and my insomnia has kicked in again. I sleep about 3 and a half hours than wake up around 4am. Can't get back to sleep until after 8am and sleep til 11 or so. I know a lot is jet lag and it will eventually go away, but I sure do look forward to getting a full night's rest. I drove my truck and loved it! Getting it registered on Friday or Monday, but its insured as of midnight Friday. Getting parking permit on Friday as well. Going shopping this weekend for dorm room needs. Really looking forward to hitting thrift shops and pawn shops.

Luke has been a huge help letting me stay here for free. I did apply to move into my room early, so I am waiting to see if that gets approved or not. The guys work all day and they kinda stick to their own thing so I feel a little bit in the way, although they've never said so or even indicated it. I know that its that they have their own schedule and such, and they don't mean to ignore me- they aren't used to having a chatty female in the house. Hopefully this weekend will be differant since I think we are gaming a bit. AD&D I think.

Been walking my ass off these past few days. Literally. I am happy to report that I am back to 195.5 as of this morning. It helps that I drink mostly tea and water now. Soda makes me feel so tired lately, that I am loathe to drink it as much as I used to. I have had a Subway sandwich each day since I have been here and drink a small Pepsi with it, but I usually end up throwing most of the Pepsi away. I carry bottled water with me all the time now and it really does help. I am feeling great.

I miss my kids and desperately miss hubby. I've been able to talk to him every day, though and we just started exchanging emails this morning, so things are looking up. I catch myself thinking, "What the hell am I doing here?" I hope that feeling goes away when classes start and I am busy filling up my time.

I'd write more but I don't want to hog Luke's computer. He's kind enough to let me use it while he is working. He's a swell guy.

Yeah, I use the word 'swell.'

I'm finally here and in the student union as I write this. GREAT TO BE BACK. I'll write more later, but wanted everyone to know I made it and I am THRILLED! It feels so wonderful to be back on campus, I can't even describe the euphoria!

Gotta go, might be a couple days before I check back in.

Much love!

I've tried two flights off of Guam and was unable to get on either one. I have two flights going out tomorrow that I will try to get on. One heads on to Travis AFB after a layover in Hawaii. That's the one I really want. The other leaves much later in the evening and heads to Hawaii and lands on a Marine Base. Its a med evac flight, so it just runs in the Pacific. I'd have to take my chances at getting a States flight at Hickam, once I get from the Marine base to the Air Force Base. If I am unable to leave Saturday, I try my chances again on Sunday or Monday.

I now know why the staff said to try now instead of later. I am very glad I have 13 days to get to Nebraska. If I had waited like I had planned, and had only 6 days to get where I needed to go, I would be frantic. And if I get stuck in Hawaii for a few days- well, what better place to get stuck in?

I am so crampy today. Traveling during my cycle sucks. Maybe its good I didn't make it off island today. I was able to curl up today and just veg instead of being stuffed on a small plane.

Also had to get down to one backpack and all my clothing I am taking with me in a small carry on. The flights here have had weight restrictions of 30 pounds total for luggage. That hurts. But its ok. Hubby can ship me the rest of my things when he ships my clothes.

I would write more but I really can't focus on much very long. I am anxious to leave and get this next step started.

I am trying to fly out of here in 17 hours.

Seems that the staff at the MAC terminal felt I needed to try to get out now instead of later- without coming out and saying it of course, which is something they aren't allowed to do. So I am leaving early. I have cried a couple times about it, since I really did think I had another week. I do not have all the money I was wishing I had, but I will survive. As long as I get there in one piece, I'll be fine.

I have enjoyed the time spent with my husband and my kids. This morning we are taking my daughter to see Freaky Friday, since we had planned to do that as a mother-daughter day out, but lost the chance. Hubby is coming with us. I plan to hold their hands during the movie. Dorky, I know.

Love my husband. Really love him. Just going to have to have faith that things will work out as I hope they do. Learning to trust him. Slowly but surely.

I'll be offline for a few days while I travel. I can check in on the college computers until I get my computer back. Hubby is supposed to mail me this one, but I am considering just buying a new system on September 1st like I planned originally.

Kitten is doing fine, but I am sneezing more often. Uncomfortable, but not horrible. Have to make sure to get medication before coming back.

I am not looking forward to the flights. I hate flying.

But I did manage to find a copy of the new Harry Potter book to read.

I'm very anxious right now. Scared and excited at the same time.

I feel so selfish.

Ok, the car is running again. We had to replace the battery, the alternator belt, the timing belt (chain?) and the water pump. After they did that the car wouldn't start at all. HAHAHHAHAHA. Ended up having to replace a fuse. Then it started up promptly. Yay. But this put a major kink in my school savings, so I had to call mom and dad to let them know I couldn't make it to their house. I have to wait til right before next payday to leave here, so there would be no way to get there, what with my jet lag, lack of proper funds (though my mom offerred to send me some), and lack of time. So I agreed to fly in for Thanksgiving and everyone was happy.
They were actually nice to me. They even sounded happy to hear from me. Imagine that.


Yesterday we watched American Wedding. Some laugh out loud hysterically moments, one complete gross out moment, and a few "aawww"s thrown in for good measure. It was worth the $10 we paid to see it. Afterwards we ran down to Big Navy so hubby could play his final softball game (league team) and lose both double elims- making his team the first loser. Yeah, they took second. Both games were really good.


Tonight we have a (budgeted in, thank God) farewell party at Outback Steakhouse for a coworker of hubby's and then heading a hotel bar afterwards. Seems a bit redundent to me, considering Outback serves alcohol there. But, whatever. Now I can put faces to names when hubby and I are on the phone together. Tomorrow is free for us. I am looking forward to it.

Turned in hubby's ring to get resized. He lost so much weight that it couldn't fit on his proper finger and he's been wearing it on his right hand, and it was even loose on that one. We pick it up tomorrow. Yay!

I leave in about 12 days. Yep. Still scared.